As I sit down to write, I feel that familiar tightness in my belly. I have come to know this sensation as resistance. Instead of letting it hold me back, I breathe into it…it has a message for me. I seize this feeling of resistance as an opportunity, a catalyst for growth.
I made a commitment to myself that NOW is the time! It has become too uncomfortable to operate from my old ways of being. Although I still feel some fear, I mostly feel gratitude. I am more compelled to share my work and my Soul Play journey with others than I am to resist…it is a dance…one that I choose to welcome and embrace.
My resistance in sharing comes from old negative beliefs:
“What if what I have to say doesn’t sound right?”
“What if people don’t get what I am expressing?”
“What if people judge me or challenge me?”
“Is it really best to stay small and contained? Things are okay as they are.”
“Who am I to take this bigger?”
The final answer is…Who am I not to?
I discovered Soul Play through my own healing experiences.
I started my healing journey and healing practice by uncovering old wounds/traumas stored in my body and releasing old patterns. In doing this inner work, my outer world began to shift into living a more authentic life. Many times I have wanted to turn back or at least hit the pause button and coast.
I know on a deep level that my soul came here to do great work.
This inner knowing kept nudging and leading me forward.
I kept listening to my still small voice within, practicing my 5 Principles of Healing and having the courage to continue to show up no matter what (just like I am now). I was delighted to find I was walking and living more and more in my purpose and my life’s work came forth in assisting other to do the same. Hence came Soul Play.
In diving into my old negative beliefs, I decided to reach inside and answer the questions that had been tugging at me.
Who am to support other’s in living their soul’s purpose?
As I took baby steps in “getting my voice back” and honoring my soul’s expression, I was able to hold the space for others to heal and do the same. Asking for what I needed and healing the parts of myself that allowed me to receive the support that I desired and required, opened up the opportunity and has given my clients permission to do the same.
Who am I to live my biggest, largest, most authentic life possible?
In the past, I have kept myself small and safe (false sense of safety for sure). I was afraid of negative reactions and the pain I have felt from the past in shining my light brightly. I now know that my soul expression not only matters but is a gift to others.
Who am I to teach others how to remember their gifts and to Soul Play?
I had to remember how to play again, to use my voice, to have the courage to be vulnerable, to ask for what I need/desire. To lean into support, to accept being different, to be okay with making others uncomfortable, and to come out of hiding and share what my soul came here to do.
I was born to create Soul Play. I was born to hold the space for others to heal and to teach them that they were also born to Soul Play.
Who am I to make a difference?
I believe we all came here to make a difference. To heal ourselves first. To bring light to our shadow. To own our stories and honor our journey. To use our life experiences to help others and heal the planet.
I created my retreats “Awaken the Healer Within” and “Awaken the Creator Within” to witness and assist others in accessing and bringing the healer within themselves to life.
Whether it is my Mom holding sacred space for her kitties to pass in a conscious, loving environment….or my friend who has come to such peace in her life that her calming presence is a gift to others…or my neighbor who is now confident in her own skin to tell the truth with simplicity and love, modeling healthy self expression.
Some of us actually have “healer titles” but many more do not.
People share with me all the time that they are being called to show up differently….there is a feeling, a nudge that says there is something else that they are meant to do in this lifetime. They know it is time to come out and play in a bigger way.
My clients say they know they came here to do great things, to play full out and express their most authentic self.
How I discovered Soul Play:
Releasing the old = Honoring your journey = Living from your authentic self = Soul Purpose = Soul Expression = Soul Play!